sadness and crying~

last nite i got this phone call from someone. i refused to answer that-on my first thought that it has nothing to discuss, negotiate further or watever... only on the third time i answered., it was at about 1++ am. i'm nearly go to wonderland as already landing on my bed. listening to his voice enough to make me crying. seriously i dunno what really happen to me. i'm not understand myself at this stage. sometime i hate him on what happen between us. can't stop thinking why i'm so stupid.. i should not answer his call and let him know what i feel. i'm speak less. i can even count how many words had i uttered to him. it's very2 little cuz i hv nothing to say. regret, but it's too late. currently, my emotion is bit messy. i have to concentrate. biarlah.. i'm not dying anyway, dats for sure.. last word, pls go awayyyy from me. {i'm begging =( }